how do people do it, how do people step into someone's life and make people feel so complete and then leave the very next moment without saying anything. how do people replace a certain special someone so easily and quickly. how do people do it. how how how. world's so hard to live in sometimes and i have been feeling so ugh the past few days. i guess the time of the month's coming soon but still those are some of the questions i wish i had answers to it but then again there's another part of me that doesn't exactly want to know it too because sometimes it's just a lot better not to know anything at all. but this is tiring this really is tiring. i need to wear my heart on my cheek (quoted by one of Marina's songs) 

sigh maybe this is how i'm going to learn. i think i know what they meant when they said life's never smooth sailing there will be its ups and downs and the down-times are tests to see how strong you really are as a person. the down-times are the ones that either break you or make you and i'm not going to let anything break me so i will stand tall. 

ok enough i need some happy thoughts to brush off the ugh-thoughts. hmm at least this week was relatively productive in terms of exercising. swam for polite and ran a 5k for polite and wtfbbq i wanted to die while running the dreadful 5k route around NYP the slopes were really a killer but i'm pretty satisfied with my results so i guess all's good. and we celebrated coach's birthday and the warm fuzzy feeling i get when i saw the priceless smile on coach's face was really very comforting and i was so so so so happy. 

all in all, i think i'm actually pretty blessed with the 2 families i have right now. i wouldn't trade the world for these two wonderful families. they're such precious people i love them so much. come to think of it, yes i really am blessed beyond words :')