Fat

I get really sensitive when people talk to me about that topic. I have been fat practically all my life and I'm constantly in the process of losing weight almost every single day. (Just so you know, the last time I had fast food was close to 5 years ago.)

I like being healthy but I hate being fat and sometimes being healthy doesn't necessarily make you a skinny person. I want to be strong I want to be slim but the process of it is sure as hell and I get extremely upset whenever I see an increase in my weight. I know I'm not supposed to let the numbers determine how I feel because... They're just numbers anyway but I do. I let it crush me inside out. Perhaps I wouldn't feel this way if I knew I was trying but fact is- I'm trying. I'm always trying to lose weight. Going for runs eating healthily reducing my carbs intake etc. I can only tell you- this is so damn freaking hard.

But what can we do? What can I do? Suck it up and try even harder. I cannot help it I have to do it. For myself, for my bases for the team and yes, for myself. If anyone knows how to lose weight, leave a comment or you can comment on my formspring @ formspring.me/polkadotzies

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